3 posts tagged “spring”

today i explored my yard.

flowerbush

bumble

lilacs

well, finals are over.  the seniors get ready to make their last bar crawl tonight.  the smell of freshly mowed grass is in the air, the taste of coconut and rum on our lips, and this, they tell me, is summer.  we're young and beautiful and lively simply because it's inevitable.  one can't help but be joyous for a moment, when the sun is setting, the neighbors kids are riding their bikes up and down the street, their laughter echoing through the quiet spring evening.

i have to shoot a fake movie poster tonight, for my photography final.  it's not due until tuesday, but my professor insists that we should get them all printed on poster board.   we don't have a kinkos around here, so that's not an option.  which means that i'll have to go to a printing house to get it done.  i think it's ridiculous because it's going to cost me a stupid amount of money to do. 

my english romanticism final is the only other one i'm worried about, mainly because it's all essays and we aren't allowed to erase.  yes, that's right, no pencils allowed, only pen.  :sigh: she'll just have to deal with my copious amounts of misspelled words.  other finals include a 5 page "living paper" (read paper with links, pictures, and movies) for my american realism class, and a take home essay final for my PR class. so next week should be interesting.

i'm not sure what i'm doing this summer, so my life is only planned till friday.  literally, i have no idea what i'm going to do after friday.  i think i'm hitting some kind of turning point; i need to make big changes soon.  i really don't enjoy the quality of the education i'm getting.  i constantly feel like there's no point to showing up to class (i do anyways) because i'm not learning or the professor seems to have just given up on teaching.  i don't think i want to drop out, simply because that sounds so unlike me.  i think i need to transfer, but i seem to be incapable of figuring out where to transfer.    

i also think that i need to find a new job.  part of my problem is that i feel like my education (english/comm major) is not getting me closer to what i want to do (photojournalism).  similarly, my minimum wage job isn't serving any purpose besides killing time.   during the school year, i don't make enough to pay my bills because i don't work enough hours.  my graphic design job is nice, but they don't need me in the summer.  i guess what would make me happy would be to feel like i was in the type of job that could further my career (even if it was a crappy job- something at the very bottom of the industry.  i don't mind working a crappy job as long as i feel like i'm getting closer to reaching my goals.)

:sigh: in a completely un-related note, i took these flower pictures while i was walking around campus the other day:

flowering tree

flowering tree 2